My mind was racing!

why why why! 

So why do I let someone new come in my life and lift my whole spirits? I should always feel like this high on life, confident, and someone actually said that i have a glow....wtf....lol

Just because someone is showing me a little  lot of attention? Yea I guess, It just feels different... 

Like good different though!

Yea I like it and I hope it last....

I only say that because I'm not good at relationships I always seem to screw them up or push them away            (i guess). And I'm at a period in my life where I wanna change to become a better person and just mold myself into becoming a better me! 

This includes:

• Opening up and standing up for myself/what I think is right
• Being open to new and different things/people 
• And People cant read ya mind so be honest with how I feel

Nobody might be interested in this or even care but this is more for me than anyone else...

Little reminder of what I wanna do..

Finally

I feel so much better now about my classes and education/future.... 

I went to see my adviser about my classes and see what I can do and I was open and honest about what i wanted to do and that was the best thing I could have ever done.

Basically I told her that I realized that the major I was working towards wasn't what I wanted to do anymore and shes going to help my change my major to general studies caz I told her that I wanted to finish my AA before i moved on to what I actually wanted to do. And I have an appointment in about 2 weeks to go back and discuss my classes for next semester.

Im so happy that this is finally off my chest and Im less stressed about it. Feels so good to have someone helping me on my journey! <3

Something I need to get off my chest!

Catching up on YouTube videos today because I’ve been so busy/tired/doing other things that i haven’t been able to keep up... And saw a video talking about How to Become a Graphic Designer, btw this has nothing to do with what I want to do in my future but one of my fav you tubers made it so I gave it a chance.

And it just got me thinking about what I’m doing right now and asking myself if this is what I want to be doing? Is this making me happy?

BTW if your answer is NO then don’t do that anymore.

Do what makes you happy!

So just a little back story, I’ve always known I wanted to become a teacher, in high school I was in the education program and everything on my path to becoming one. After high school I got interested in the beauty and makeup world hints “YOUTUBE”. And now 2 years into a community college with a major of early childhood education and planning to finish then go to beauty school I’m unhappy with what I’m doing right now. It’s really a struggle to get myself to do my work for classes I’m not interested in anymore and I have a dilemma!

Is it ok for me to stop working towards my AA in early childhood and move on to beauty school?

I know this might not be a big deal to some people but I think I’m putting more pressure on myself than anyone else is and I know that but….idk or should I suck it up and finish?

(PS I don’t really expect anyone to answer me(but would be nice) I just like to have a place to rant....I like to take time to right things down to have a better prospective and to get them off the top of my noggin it helps clear my air)

Try it sometime it helps

PSS: take time to figure out what makes u happy and do it! J

Crappy Dayz!

Every had one of "those days".... You know!

The day that nothing is right or nothing feels right.... Today I had one of those days! 

Nothing felt/went right for me today.... I didn't like my makeup but had no time to try it again. People at work was working my last nerve and I had a difference which wasn't good. Also I have to pay for my classes on Wednesday but i don't get paid til Friday..... its just like a WTF day. 

And yea I know that I shouldn't be complaining because someone out there always has it worst off than you but this is my blog and my place to blow off steam :')

So I was just thinking about a video/tumblr I remember Philip DeFranco doing (ps totally on a different subject but just take this ride with me ok) and it cheered me up caz I was having a really crappy day and this just made me luv myself and other people just that little bit more <3

So anyways I incourage everyone to do this and I always told myself I was going to do it like right after I saw this video but time just got away for me or maybe it was just hiding from me for a rainy day.(yea lets say that...ha ha) But anyways lets get on to it. Basically a couple things that make me awesome/I luv about me.

                  I:

• Luv being short (5feet and I don't think there was ever a time in my life I wish I was taller)
• Luv my long hair... curly and straight
• Like my personality 
• Luv that I think outside thebox about most things even when people say huh! Yea I'm weird and I luv it...!

So moral of the story today.... ummmm IDK some days you have crappy days but cheer up by luving yourself <3

ELF 32 eye shadow palette review....

So I made a video about ELF's 32 eye shadow palette but I'm going to put the pictures here and maybe post the video too... 

Just a recap of my thoughts on this palette, its a nice palette for 5 dollars and in this situation you get what you pay for. Some of the shadows were pigmented/nice while others were not and when swatched a lot of the lighter colors looked the same. Also when swatched most of the eye shadows were very powdery/ soft and left excess dust on the shadows (which i dislike caz I feel like that's wasting product). So basically its an OK palette for 5 dollars. Tell me your thoughts on the palette? Do you like it? Hate it? Are you going to buy it? Do you have it already? Whats your fav song? lol....... so lets get to the pics.......------>

(picture to the right is example of how shadows start to look similar) (2 other pictures have shadows in the middle that do not swatch well*(if u did see that):))

Something i wanted to share :)

So yesterday I was looking tough out YouTube, as I always do, and came a pond this video of this chick doing something incredible..... Making her dreams a REALITY!

I luv this! 

She is an inspiring fashion designer and she actually crashed fashion week and made the street her runway, with her own models and everything. The way the video was put together and the music she put to it is so inspiring and that's kinda why I'm making this blog post(the music). 

I luved everything it really inspires me to be a better person and to work harder to make my dreams come to a REALITY.

{Anyways after all of that} The song is called Ambitious Girl by Wale {pronounced Wale', not whale}... And yea I do understand if everyone doesn't know of Wale because some of his music is gogo and that type of music comes from the DMV area but this is an awesome/inspiring song that should be spread.
So check out the links and tell me what you think of  the song and her video.!.!...

^^^^^Ambitious Girl by Wale ^^^^^^

And the chicks YouTube name is shavonnedeann & the link to the video is here---> http://youtu.be/FNmA0psHAGQ

Something about me :)

So for the past hour or so i have been searching for something to blog about...

I wanted to do a survey type this so maybe i could share a little bit about myself or something like that. Then i found myspace again...lol and that was fun, I remember deleting my myspace about 3years ago and wow has myspace changed. It was like one of those friends form high school who you lost touch with and then you randomly see them on the street one day and don't really know what to say so the convo goes like "hey" "o hey" "how are you" "I'm good and you" lol yea.

Yup so anyways long story short i didn't find what i was looking for. So I'm going to just tell you guys a little something.

1. My names Jazmine, but I luv it when people call me Jaz, hate it when people spell it Jazz.

2. I'm kinda addicted to Youtube {making and watching videos}

3. Also addicted to beauty/makeup and kinda getting into fashion stuff

4. Luv music it speaks to my soul without it there wouldn't be a point of living

5. On my 2nd year of college studying early childhood education but its not what I want to do anymore.

6. I want to travel the world one day! {PARIS & I'm trying to teach myself french}

7. I'm 19, have 1brother and a really big family

8. Ummmmm my favorite color is orange&purple and idk what else is there ;)

Thats all i got for right now hope u enjoyed! caz im luving it <3



In the beginning!

So this is my first blog post!

This is a place where I'm going to put anything that I want. {After reading that it makes me feel like this post is more to remind myself to have fun with this blog and just to be my self here. :)}

 I have a YouTube but I don't always feel like I can put anything/do anything with it. (because its a beauty channel) p.s. i luv making videos I'm just lazy...lol

And lately I have been thinking about making a vlog/anything channel but IDK....I had a thought today that that would be a lot more work (aka lazy here).

But I luv to write so what about a blog.

So this first blog post here to let everyone/myself know that there are no rules to this blog! I'm going to do anything and everything i want with it and if you would like to join me then kudos to you& luv u that much more. hope u luv it :)